Wednesday, April 18, 2012

I am a child

I am a child. I am 20 years old, I know. But I am a child. I am a grown-up, or am I? I don't want to be a grown-up, sometimes. 
Grown-ups have forgotten everything they lived for when they were children. They used to play together, they used to dream, they used to care, they would never worry. They used to love with passion, deeply. They did not have prejudices. 
But now; they don't play anymore, they don't dream anymore, they don't care about anything but themselves and feel insecure. They hate with passion; they hate others and even themselves sometimes. They get angry and they forget that when they were children, they didn't know it all, but they wanted to learn. They forget that when they were children, they were hurt when adults lied to them. 
But they make the same mistakes as their parents and grandparents before them : they forget the essential things of life and attach themselves to things that pass; they are never satisfied.
So, I am a child, because I am still myself. Everything changed, but nothing changed, after all. 
I am the same, so is this world.
Will it ever change? I believe it will. I am not naive and I am not living a utopia. I think I am right and will never give up, as long as I am on this earth. 
As Mother Theresa said : "We ourselves feel that what we are doing is just a drop in the ocean. But the ocean would be less because of that missing drop."

"And because iniquity shall abound, the love of many shall wax cold. But he that shall endure unto the end, the same shall be saved"

Matthew 24v12-13